For who ? For ourselves. Did we do something, some ritual that affirmed our faith today ? In what ? In ourselves. Our ability to connect with our inner selves. For if we do not, who is this person that is working, loving, talking etc. It’s certainly not you.
It’s an everyday search for me. For that something that can put me in touch with myself. My connection to consciousness. My connection to loving nature.
Of course many people have faith. Which is a wonderful ability. I don’t have blind faith. I am more of a searcher. Questioner. Good, bad ? I don’t know. No value judgements on any faith or the question of faith. Or on myself.
Some people do it with meditation first thing in the morning. I have never been able to do that. I have to connect to something, however small, however little, to loose my sense of individuality. That’s the daily struggle. Against my own exaggarated sense of myself. I am so used to it. I have relied on it for so many years. So tough to let go now. Not that I have never questioned it before. But now, it is really important for me to be truly ‘active’ rather than ‘reactive’, which is what I have done most of my life. And how do I know what that ‘true’ action is ? Unless I am constantly in touch with something larger, more immense, more universal than myself ?
Yes I know. By letting go. By allowing yourself not to be addicted to the result of your action. By allowing chaos to invade your life. Yes, I agree. All of that. I do allow chaos to prevade in my life. I am impeteous (spelling). But then the individual in me fights back hard.
It’s an everyday battle. This battle to let go of one’s addiction to one’s sense of individuality.
Yet, the smallest of things can provoke the sensing of my flowing into something much much larger. Something infinite.
This morning it was my 5 year old daughter waking me up with a loud ‘Peekaboo’ and the tinkling of an early morning laugh.
Sometimes it;s just getting up early enough to watch the first shades of dark blue brush across the sky. Something deeply stirring about that.
Sometimes it’s unexpected gestures of affection that were not sought. Or given so instinctually that you were not aware of them.
Sometimes, it’s writing a poem. But only if the words are coming from somewhere else. As if something is flowing through you, a river of emotion you can physically feel that flows through your being.
But it is always so unexpected. So much that I am constantly aware now. My senses hightened. Waiting for that unexpected moment.
When something deeper will reach out and engulf me, and give my life, and all my actions, however small, a deeper and all encompassing context. On a daily basis.
So say a prayer for me. And for yourself.
Shekhar
“We give thanks for all those who are moved, in their lives, to heal and protect the earth, in small ways and large. Blessings on the composters, the gardeners, the breeders of worms and mushrooms, the soil builders, those who cleanse the waters and purify the air, all those who clean up the messes others have made.
“Blessings on those who defend trees and who plant trees, who guard the forests and who renew the forests. Blessings on those who heal the grasslands and renew the streams, on those who prevent erosion, who restore the salmon and the fisheries, who guard the healing herbs and who know the lore of the wild plants.
“Blessings on those who heal the cities and bring them alive again with excitement and creativity and love. Gratitude and blessings to all who stand against greed, who risk themselves, to those who have bled and been wounded, and to those who have given their lives in service of the earth.
“May all the healers of the earth find their own healing. May they be fueled by passionate love for the earth. May they know their fear but not be stopped by fear. May they feel their anger and yet not be ruled by rage. May they honor their grief but not be paralyzed by sorrow. May they transform fear, rage, and grief into compassion and the inspiration to act in service of what they love.
“May they find the help, the resources, the courage, the luck, the strength, the love, the health, the joy that they need to do the work. May they all be on the right place, at the right time, in the right way.
“May they bring alive a great awakening, open a listening ear to hear the earth’s voice, transform imbalance to balance, hate and greed to love. Blessed be the healers of the earth.”
~Starhawk from The Earth Path
breathing in wellness…master thich nhat hanh…breathing out thay
…2015…
aum
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ6vX7fl0Yw&feature=youtu.be
…some thoughts for the new 2015 year,
blessings,
Cinda
Dad, I love you,
Thank you for teaching me
for taking care of me
for loving me
for giving me my first steps on the journey of drumming
for helping me to understand the wisdom in “outside of the box thinking”
for just being my dad
I’m sorry
Forgive me
Thank you
I love you
10 years ago…your body left us…
and
your spirit lives on….
aum
while we are all busy trying to define, in our own subjective ways what
freedom of speech
right to respect
etc. etc.
what about accountability for our choices?
what about…do to others what you would like done to you?
I don’t know…
who has become such a master of the frequencies that pass through…
aum shanti
e
g
o ….. ..awaring it
…it is Friday, 13…there
it is Thursday, 12…here
what does it matter?
not,
because when I look to the sky
the moon
the sun and the stars…
it is the same
for
you
and
me
…love
Valentine’s
Hare Krishna
aum
…try to avoid something, and it will find you somehow, somewhere…sometime
Well, since I read about the movie, Bandit Queen, on this site, years and years ago,
I made an effort to avoid watching it and reading more about it because the
subject of “rape” came up, and there must be an intense sensitivity about “rape”
and what it symbolizes, for me. So I avoided watching the movie, reading more about
it, and even skipped seeing the words when it came up on the side scroll, on this website.
10 years or so later, a lady acquaintance came to one of my close friends birthday celebration
at my home, last week. Many of my friends are artists of some kind, and we were playing
music…jamming, singing. When we were done, this lady came up to me and asked if I would play
drums at a fundraiser for a documentary. Long story short…yesterday, I asked her to send me the name of the person who the documentary is being made about, so I can research and find out about her.
Well, today when I checked my email…the name Phoolan Devi came up. I googled her name, only to find that she was known as “Bandit Queen”. My jaw dropped! Was this the same person in the movie by Shekhar, that I have been avoiding all these years? Nah, I said. Well, to my surprise, she turned out to be the one and the same, Poolan Devi, Bandit Queen!!!
So next month, I will be supporting this fundraiser, Friday, March 13, 2015, here in Toronto, for the completion of the documentary about her.
The film is being done by
http://www.fazelifilms.com
Co-Director, Gillian Greenfeld (gillian@phoolandevimovie.com)
While I am a small unnoticeable glimpse in all of this, the impact I felt when this came across my path, again…is no small unnoticeable glimpse.
So today, I read more about it…felt quite uncomfortable reading some of the information and what this Being endured…and now I am learning, again, how to deal with…face and find the lessons I need to learn…about “myself” in all of this. One moment at a time.
Thank you, Shekhar…for being, expressing and loving life, the way you do.
Cinda
aum
this dance…
as I watch you move across the universe
invisibly…visible
there in the shadows of light
you move with such grace and devotion
spilling the essence of movements upon a glimmer of faith
for this is all that is needed to …know
you ARE Shiva
Welcome to Toronto, Shekhar.
Hope your stay here is warm and inspiring!
Bundle up, it’s freezing, indeed!
…I forgot
I didn’t
I just misplaced it
it was never forgotten
just in a place where I wasn’t thinking about
I misplaced me
Dear Shekhar,
My birthday gathering is on March 20, you are invited
to attend if you are still in Toronto.
We would be most honoured,
Cinda
…to the light, to the love…to another dimension, my aunt has gone
she shown courage beond what i could talk about
and her spirit soared above the tremendous pain and suffering
she said…”can’t complain”
Aum
((( Nepal ))) in love and prayers all who are affected by this earthquake and other disasters around the world…
aum shanti shanti shanti aum
happy birthday
I gaze, from out of time
To see the edge of wonder, your sublime
and perfect manifestations fall and arise,
In mirth and sadness, play the part of my disguise
All while worshiping my ever calm One, Beloved, within.
ISHA
…that which isn’t
Shiva
It is my wish and my blessing that this Kumbha Mela should become a huge step in that direction, to awaken the world to this possibility.
Sadhguru
aum
July 12, 2017
Amma
saw her last night
felt her
heard her
smelt her
tasted the sound of her voice as she whispered into my ears
we hugged
…
to be and not to be
perhaps it is
the answer
what are we doing dancing with all of these words?
sometimes we just fall helplessly in love with them, that we keep on repeating them over and over,
and by the same expression,
sometimes we try our hardest to avoid and even run from them
because we can’t stand for what they stand for
the avoidance may seem unlike a dance, perhaps, it is
as intense a dance as the one so deeply in love…?
what if are traveling through time as if
we were going through a tunnel, and all of the scenery
are the experiences we come across in our own unique journeys?
for Kundra,
a prayer, an offering of hope, love,
peace, good health, healing and well being.
Aum shanti shanti shanti Hari Aum
Climate Crisis
real or not?
maybe just step outside
look to the sky
smell the air
see if horizon is clear
after a rainfall, look at the dust left back after it’s dried
notice notice notice
the signs are showing up
even if you don’t watch tv, have a radio or any other means of communication
the evidence , the planet is sending the messages
we just need to listen
and act accordingly
authenticity
truth
conviction
persistence
determination
dedication and devotion
aum
Honouring all FemiNINE Energy,
on this Navaratri
Love
Courage
Enduarance
Patience
Compassion
Confidence
Truth
Devotion
Brilliance
Praying for my daughter, Anjalee, clarity, balance, strength, love, awareness,
that she listen to her inner voice of wisdom and reason to overcome any unhealthy
obstacles manipulating her from being healthy, safe and well, I love you always forever, mama,
aum shanti shanti shanti aum
to mask or not to mask
what happens in our minds for us to think it is better to have the choice and right to not wear a mask over being safe or doing something that would keep others safe?
does ‘safety and good health’ take a back seat over ‘rights and choices?’
is the virus making people think in an unhealthy way making them choose not to wear a mask? Does the virus have such control over people without them knowing or being aware?
I wonder!
searching
oh, i found something
what?
another question
what question?
the one that never ends
why?
praying
thinking about what thoughts are directed in the stream of intentions
are they connecting with an energy source that takes them to a processing center
and the collective energies there are what sends the intentions to their destinations
and they are carried out
but plays out not in a way that was originally intentioned?
hmm
it’s confusing
some wearing masks
others not
both think they are right
both have findings to support their view
except
one is exercising safety
the other is exercising their right to choose
would you choose your right to choose over being safe?
aum
grace
patience
space
awareness
kind
wellness
balance
wisdom
courage
strength
fate
trust
love
aum
Shinrin Yoku
time to bathe
aum
Sending Loving prayers to my sister, Carol,
for healing and recovery of her injuries, and good health to continue blossoming in her Being and Body. Peace and Blessings, Always Forever, I love you
your Sister
aum shanti shanti shanti aum
a prayer for
my daughter and son,
they are healthy Beings, and have the means and abilities to journey on with love, presence, awareness, balance, strength, courage, compassion, understanding, and a sense of humour…
aum
“So say a prayer for me. And for yourself.
Shekhar”
Sending love and prayers for you and for all of the world and it’s life forces,
aum shanti shanti shanti aum
yes, we said a prayer today, and on most days,
sometimes consciously
and other times
not
the heartsoul moves in mysterious ways
aum
love
aum
thank you for helping me to help myself
aum
Sending receiving
same?
direction is the difference, perhaps
a prayer offering,
dear all
you’d already know what i’m about to say because you are All
but me saying it is for me to say even though you are All
still, i offer this prayer of intention and purposefully placed thoughts
because
i love you
i thank you
for All
aum
patience
calm
breathing
reflection
awareness
balance
presence
aum
this grain of sand
which i am smaller
unseen
as all of existence and more
i have seen you walking along the roadway
hand out asking for some change
your asking is an opportunity for me to visit myself and see how i would respond
Celebrating peace of mind,
today, and most days
consciously and otherwise
deep gratitude
aum
atonement
attunement
non-attachment
lament
repent
repeat
recycle
reincarnate
revive
replenish
radiate
radical
reciprocate
return
receive
rest
rotate
regift
aum
or
just…be 🙂
Vastra Alankara for Sri Bayalu Anjaneya Swamy at Avadhoota Datta Peetham, Mysuru
One who holds a job with huge responsibilities
also holds a place of immense influence and shaping the contours of what becomes visible,
audible, felt, impacts and effects on the mind heart and soul of billions of people.
When such a position lands in the lap of One who has such openness and creative juices,
the world will be a better place,
for what holds true of this being will emerge through this portal,
simple, natural, free, playful, humble, integral,
a quantum leap
God’s speed
aum