Looking back at my life, I was a victim of education. And I rebelled. And came outside the education system to create for myself an environment in which I could explore who I am in what I do. I rebelled against what I call the "do duni chaar" education system. True creative endeavour in any [...]
Category: About Myself
The ‘Wallah’s’ in my life or when Cate Blanchet kissed Suresh
I saw the woman in glasses (on the left) 25 years ago.. Early in the morning she was running on the Juhu beach in Mumbai, sari and all, balancing the basket of fresh fish on her head that was tilted at a slightly awkward angle - probably the best way to balance the uncertain load [...]
The sweet acrid nostalgic smell of Delhi winter
Walking the streets of Delhi just as dusk has set in. The slight smell from the fog mixed with the smell of traffic fumes on Janpath. Memories. Of my mother, always in her colorful saris, red shawl, her carefully bobbed hair just down to her neck. And laughing, always laughing as if she feared if [...]
Rohtang Pass, lost Glaciers and the hut that saved my life
i thought it was a dream. A fantasy of my mind. I was in high pass that was completely iced up, snow was thigh deep. The afternoon winds had picked up, and though we were warned not to go to the pass in the afternoon, we were foolhardy boys looking for any challenge that even [...]
is nothing something ?
india times said I was on a spiritual search because of the turmoil of my personal life and post oscar success of golden age. Not true. I have been in turmoil since I was 10. In Delhi we used to sleep under the open skies on the terrace in summer. There was no light, sound [...]
confused traveler bumping my boat from shore to shore not sure if the ports are bouncing me back or the springs are in my boat so strong that they push me back into the rough seas the moment they touch land ? wandering because till i see the destination i will not know I am [...]
the things i did and those i did not the way things went and the way they did not the things i can and those i cannot it's just the way it is and just the way it was
The gift of talent, I believe, is a huge responsibility. It does not really belong to you. It never did. If used for merely acquiring wealth fame and power, talent turns into the devil that eats into your soul. Like a gambling debt, like an addiction. Not to a supreme creative endeavour but to the [...]
Partition of India, the pain.
Just watching a documentary of an Asian Indian actor tracing her roots. And then the documentary talked about her Grand Uncle and his family being massacred on a train as they fled from the newly created Pakistan. She even met her great aunt who was on that train when she was 20, but somehow survived. [...]
Back in London now, to do the post on Golden Age, and found it just tooooo depressing to leave India.. For Mumbai kept me far far more alive than London could ever do. When u are constantly confronted with mortality and contradictions, you are forced to live life on the edge. What better way to [...]