For who ? For ourselves. Did we do something, some ritual that affirmed our faith today ? In what ? In ourselves. Our ability to connect with our inner selves. For if we do not, who is this person that is working, loving, talking etc. It’s certainly not you.
It’s an everyday search for me. For that something that can put me in touch with myself. My connection to consciousness. My connection to loving nature.
Of course many people have faith. Which is a wonderful ability. I don’t have blind faith. I am more of a searcher. Questioner. Good, bad ? I don’t know. No value judgements on any faith or the question of faith. Or on myself.
Some people do it with meditation first thing in the morning. I have never been able to do that. I have to connect to something, however small, however little, to loose my sense of individuality. That’s the daily struggle. Against my own exaggarated sense of myself. I am so used to it. I have relied on it for so many years. So tough to let go now. Not that I have never questioned it before. But now, it is really important for me to be truly ‘active’ rather than ‘reactive’, which is what I have done most of my life. And how do I know what that ‘true’ action is ? Unless I am constantly in touch with something larger, more immense, more universal than myself ?
Yes I know. By letting go. By allowing yourself not to be addicted to the result of your action. By allowing chaos to invade your life. Yes, I agree. All of that. I do allow chaos to prevade in my life. I am impeteous (spelling). But then the individual in me fights back hard.
It’s an everyday battle. This battle to let go of one’s addiction to one’s sense of individuality.
Yet, the smallest of things can provoke the sensing of my flowing into something much much larger. Something infinite.
This morning it was my 5 year old daughter waking me up with a loud ‘Peekaboo’ and the tinkling of an early morning laugh.
Sometimes it;s just getting up early enough to watch the first shades of dark blue brush across the sky. Something deeply stirring about that.
Sometimes it’s unexpected gestures of affection that were not sought. Or given so instinctually that you were not aware of them.
Sometimes, it’s writing a poem. But only if the words are coming from somewhere else. As if something is flowing through you, a river of emotion you can physically feel that flows through your being.
But it is always so unexpected. So much that I am constantly aware now. My senses hightened. Waiting for that unexpected moment.
When something deeper will reach out and engulf me, and give my life, and all my actions, however small, a deeper and all encompassing context. On a daily basis.
So say a prayer for me. And for yourself.
Shekhar
invisible wall
not so invisible
when i feel the pain of its absence
Son: what do the prayers do?
Mama: prayers are a form of focus and intention, sending thoughts of well wishes.
Son: how does that help people involved? Like what does it objectively actually do?
I’m not saying it has to do anything for the record, it can just be a gesture. But, a gesture is a gesture, different from tangible help.
Mama: collective visual and energy support, like live music or listening on the radio, different results.
Son: “collective visual and energy support.” What part of “sending thoughts of well wishes” is visual? “like live music or listening on the radio, different results” But with music on the radio people are actually hearing it. By that logic of “sending prayers” even when you aren’t with people you should hear every concert happening on the planet because the distance no longer matters.
Mama: i mean, going in person can sometimes help people feel the sense of support, and sometimes it could be long distance too.
Son: going in person, i agree, that can be helpful. Long distance, how?
Mama: not sure how to explain now
Son: Ok
Prayers to Our Global Family
all the creatures
and
this beautiful planet, Earth
a prayer of peace
for all
aum
20 Swirls around the Sun, my Son
Love, Peace, Good Health, Balance,
Awareness, and sense of inner presence,
my prayers to you for all years to come,
Being well and Safe
I love you, always forever,
Mama
aum
this is
the driving energy
stirring the momentum
created from
the subconscious fuels
taking flight
in search of nothing
but
simply travelling through
life
at any given moment
in its own accord
with all there is
alone and together
all at once
when is turns to was
“OYE, I GOT THIS!”
~Gianna Bryant
letting go
aum
the inner workings of a child can show up in so many different forms,
through song, poetry, dance, silence, speaking up, cooking, play, drama,
so many ways
are we tuned in enough to understand what they are trying to tell us?
New version of
TED Talks (male version)
DEE Talks (female version)
time for some miso soup
Dear Existence of All there is,
how are you feeling?
A prayer, for the one who sings on this Album,
a highly complex individual, genius musician,
intelligent beyond his years, isolated himself from
immediate family, the hurt and pains go deep, and
life is going on, in the forms it takes, as we journey through
our experiences, so we live, may you be safe, and feel loved cared for,
have peace of mind, and your creativity serve you and others well.
I love you, my brother, cinda
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HF3857ipPAY&fbclid=IwAR3f_UEqrpoHw0VxsMMpEnxE0q5mJ1Jpl5oCdZSnDLf09DFnR20pQNowlT8
For Anjalee,
safety, wellbeing, protection,
awareness and clarity
aum shanti shanti shanti aum
prayer
powerful
reaching
connecting
devotion
intention
longing
desperation
love
wish
gifting
bestowing
sharing
quiet
care
quantum leap
simple
genuine
real
authentic
belonging
gesture
whisper
aum
for Anjalee, much love and peace of mind to you,
and a prayer for;
clearing the air of too many toxins
clearing the mind of overwhelming thoughts
clearing the heart of congested feelings
clearing too many unhealthy cells in the body
clearing too much aggression that impacts on well being
aum shanti aum
balance
clarity
being
boundaries
learning how to create safe kind and caring ones
and
sometimes
a strong rigid one is needed
boundaries
writing
hmmm
umm hm what to say what to say
dear self,
are you there?
did you leave and go to a place
where there is no place?
oh, there you are
i feel you
oppsi, you never left
it was just me
not paying attention
i love you and thank you for always being there for me
me
ma
aum
maa
aumm
maaa
aummm
a prayer for the practice of
peace
patience
kindness
love
compassion
good health
aum
57 swirls around the Sun, today
what an amazingly unique and rare occurrence
happening around our planet
love and healthy blessings to everyone
aum Shanti Shanti Shanti aum
keeping distance from each other
we have this virus making its way, around the world
setting the influence of new rules
for us to be safe and well
the virus moves in, the people move out
the virus is roaming about freely, no charge
pitching a tent where it feels to
humans figuring out how to slow and stop it from spreading
cooperation, kindness, reaching out with love, not physical love
but a love that crosses over oceans, land masses, horizons beyond the skies
a love that is able to wipe clean any virus in it’s path
the virus is giving us the opportunity to express this kind of deep timeless love
for each other, for our planet
it’s making many sick and die too, sad
we do what we need to
to keep safe
healthy
helpful
kind
caring
collaborative
sharing
curious
educated
an image we thought we would never see
aum
we rise
we crawl
we fall
we walk
we run
we sit
we lay
we jump
we stride
we wait
we stop
we rise again
“The Coronavirus scenario has impacted spiritual gatherings from meditation groups to prayer circles. In response, groups are finding innovative ways meet up virtually. In this spirit, I hosted my first on-line Lightworkers gathering last evening Participants couldn’t see or hear each other but we could read our interchanges. Here’s the transcript:!
Me: Welcome brothers and sisters who walk in Love and Light.
T: What about non-binary individuals?
Me: Sorry. Welcome brothers, sisters, and NB participants.
B: Could you please include LGBTQ folks.
Me: Of course. Welcome brothers, sisters, NB, and LGBTQ participants.
D: I’m not feeling any acknowledgement of people outside the dominant culture.
Me: You’re right. Welcome brothers, sisters, NB, LGBTQ and POC participants.
F: Excuse me, are you going to do a Land Acknowledgement first?
Me: Holy Shit! Welcome to the whole goddamn alphabet gathered here on somebody else’s property. There can we begin!!!
H. Could we start with a song we choose from Spotify. Something we can all listen to and maybe sing along?
A. All By Myself
K. Don’t Stand So Close To Me by the Police
L. You Give Me Fever
O: Don’t Panic By Coldplay
R: MC Hammer’s hit, Can’t Touch This
Me: People. This is a spiritual gathering! Could we just hold a long AUM for three minutes.
Y: That’s cultural appropriation right there.
Me: Arghhh. How everyone just shut up then and we‘ll have a silent meditation, for fuck’s sake!!
D: I am sensing some hostility from you and it’s triggering my PTSD
H: And my my ADHD
V: And my BPD
F: Also my ASPD (antisocial personality disorder)
Me: WTF! I am so outta here. Please stay in your homes assholes and please stay well away from me.”
by Gary Diggins ~ March 25, 2020
A prayer for all those I said I would say a prayer for
and everyone else
not to worry to the point of no return to yourself
patience love and courage
we are enduring this
as a collective
may on one feel alone, unloved or helpless
aum
some say no
some say go
some say stop
some say why
some rush, trample, push
some go slow, patiently, peacefully
some
sending love and prayers to all those who need it
aum
awareness
love
compassion
safe distancing
kindness
healthy
rest
sleep
nourishment
collective efforts and cooperation
prayer
shelter
connections
spiritual respect
integrity
educating
learning
sharing and caring
music for the heart and well being
taking time for self and others
aum
in
it
is
me
no
up
or
do
is
ok
as
it
be
of
we
of
us
so
be
is
hope
a vehicle built for
roads not yet built
wired
safer
than through the air
given safe passage to pass
courage
aum
Gratitude
to EVERYONE who is working towards helping humanity
and all the living creatures and entities of our planet earth,
to live in peace and in good health
together as One Global Family
well,
I’m pretty sure!
sure of what?
sure of nothing
what’s nothing?
it’s something with nothing in it
i’m confused
don’t be, i did say i’m sure about nothing
it includes ‘nothing’
searching
is
the
answer
self reliance
comes with
a need for help from
others
nature
the environment
sources of support
is there such a thing as ‘self reliance’?
horizontal expectations
respect to self
service to life and planet
love courage honour being surrender trust faith truth
quantum spirit
aum
A Royal reason why millions are given a holiday, this day marking Queen Victoria’s birthday (May 24), and it also became an added significance for our family, as it was the last holiday before my Mama passed on, 23 years ago. My mother was a fan of the Royal Family, and she particularly loved Princess Diana and her compassion for others, it’s no surprise to me because my Mama was also a highly compassionate Being, she loved gardening, cooking, dressing up fancy, and taking care of elders and all those who came along her path. My mother was the person who deliberately went into coffee shops and bought food and drink for homeless people. She sacrificed her time with her children, in our early years, so she can live to still be with us later on in life. I can’t imagine what that pain must have been like for her, but I do know she did her best to make up for loss time, later on in life. Along with her many talents and skills, she was a Musician, Personal Care Worker, and worked in security for the U.S. Consulate General, a woman who wore many hats with devotion dignity and hard work. She left me with some deep lessons, ones that I am still learning, and will carry with me till the end of my days. Most of all, she loved her children and grandchildren! For me, my Mother has become a part of a Royal Legacy, in life and in her passing. Ode to these two Queens!
I love you Ma,
Thank you for all your sacrifices, love, care, help, inspiration, strength, compassion, and being there for me the best way you were able. I love you, always and forever, your baby, aum
Love and prayers for my children,
Safe Healthy Peaceful Aware Diligent
Mindful Balance of what Is
Love Always forever
Mama”
Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu
like a magnet
the emotional tsunami rides on steel
the roller coaster has risen to heights far beyond where eyes see
what is this unfolding?
a mystery and not
the pain the suffering the hurt
anger
bursting though with words as bullets
piercing the heart
over and over
over
and
over
Sending love and prayers to the families and friends of Jaisaree Singh, passed on June 16, 2020, at the age of 97. aum Shanti shanti shanti aum
Praying for my daughter, Anjalee, clarity, balance, strength, love, awareness,
that she listen to her inner voice of wisdom and reason to overcome any unhealthy
obstacles manipulating her from being healthy, safe and well, I love you always forever, mama,
aum shanti shanti shanti aum
Prayers Pray Praying Prayed
for Anjalee and Aaravinda
awareness, calm, good health,
when one thing doesn’t work do something else,
keeping strong flexible and respect to self, trust your inner instinct and act with mindfulness, feel the joy in being like a child even in adulthood, your gratitude for life and journeying will serve you well, remember to be kind to yourself, your wisdom will carry and guide you well,
you are loved, cared for and have the most precious gift of appreciating the simple things in life, may you continue to grow and find that which will serve you and our global family for the benefit of this beautiful planet earth. I love you, always forever, mama, aum
to mask or not to mask
what happens in our minds for us to think it is better to have the choice and right to not wear a mask over being safe or doing something that would keep others safe?
does ‘safety and good health’ take a back seat over ‘rights and choices?’
is the virus making people think in an unhealthy way making them choose not to wear a mask? Does the virus have such control over people without them knowing or being aware?
I wonder!
searching
oh, i found something
what?
another question
what question?
the one that never ends
why?