So did we say a prayer today ?

For who ? For ourselves. Did we do something, some ritual that affirmed our faith today ? In what ? In ourselves. Our ability to connect with our inner selves. For if we do not, who is this person that is working, loving, talking etc. It’s certainly not you.


It’s an everyday search for me. For that something that can put me in touch with myself. My connection to consciousness. My connection to loving nature.
Of course many people have faith. Which is a wonderful ability. I don’t have blind faith. I am more of a searcher. Questioner. Good, bad ? I don’t know. No value judgements on any faith or the question of faith. Or on myself.
Some people do it with meditation first thing in the morning. I have never been able to do that. I have to connect to something, however small, however little, to loose my sense of individuality. That’s the daily struggle. Against my own exaggarated sense of myself. I am so used to it. I have relied on it for so many years. So tough to let go now. Not that I have never questioned it before. But now, it is really important for me to be truly ‘active’ rather than ‘reactive’, which is what I have done most of my life. And how do I know what that ‘true’ action is ? Unless I am constantly in touch with something larger, more immense, more universal than myself ?
Yes I know. By letting go. By allowing yourself not to be addicted to the result of your action. By allowing chaos to invade your life. Yes, I agree. All of that. I do allow chaos to prevade in my life. I am impeteous (spelling). But then the individual in me fights back hard.
It’s an everyday battle. This battle to let go of one’s addiction to one’s sense of individuality.
Yet, the smallest of things can provoke the sensing of my flowing into something much much larger. Something infinite.
This morning it was my 5 year old daughter waking me up with a loud ‘Peekaboo’ and the tinkling of an early morning laugh.
Sometimes it;s just getting up early enough to watch the first shades of dark blue brush across the sky. Something deeply stirring about that.
Sometimes it’s unexpected gestures of affection that were not sought. Or given so instinctually that you were not aware of them.
Sometimes, it’s writing a poem. But only if the words are coming from somewhere else. As if something is flowing through you, a river of emotion you can physically feel that flows through your being.
But it is always so unexpected. So much that I am constantly aware now. My senses hightened. Waiting for that unexpected moment.
When something deeper will reach out and engulf me, and give my life, and all my actions, however small, a deeper and all encompassing context. On a daily basis.
So say a prayer for me. And for yourself.
Shekhar

2,076 thoughts on “So did we say a prayer today ?

  1. Setting a goal

    aimed to be done 5 years from now

    not the goal is the achievement nor the success or victory

    the preparing, planning, disciplining, readiness, the drive, the aim,
    the focus, and the will to arrive there

    the goal need not be the most important aspect,

    the journey

  2. A prayer for Bachya Ramdial,
    gratitude and appreciation of
    thanks, continued love and blessings
    wherever spirit journeys…
    aum gam aum

  3. Happiest Birthday Shekhar, all year long!
    Good health, and continued blessings
    on your adventure of life!
    Celebrating 72 times around the Sun…YAY!!!!

  4. what may be health now,

    may be unhealthy later on,

    being intuned can help to feel when the change shifts

    from healthy to unhealthy

  5. Ode to the One who is said to have walked on water,
    but more importantly, shared a presence of peace and love.

  6. a thought

    creation

    a story

    a book

    pictures

    a reading

    a listening

    transformation in every step

    as the water before it becomes the wave that travels to the shore for that one embrace and to let go again, transformation in every step

  7. Are we the stories we her, embrace, experience, and tell ourselves?

    are we any of this,

    or something completely different?

  8. If ‘cannots’ can be used as fuel to motion towards a ‘can’
    then, is there truly a ‘negative?’ or is there
    just fuel for the vehicle, and it’s just we need to
    manage the intake so we are not rendered sick
    from it’s toxic fumes, but rather direct it
    into an area where it can be transformed into a
    propelling devise?

  9. The presence of mind to make the appropriate decision for the benefit of good health, peace of ind, kindness to others and fierce when needed! aum gam aum

  10. what does holding it together mean?

    holding our bodies still, not responding in a harsh or violent way,
    being polite, being kind and courteous , etc.?

    what does it mean?
    hmm

  11. in order to ‘rewire’ something

    be it , brain, house, car engine, etc.

    one has to unwire what needs replacement

    then new wiring can be installed.

    it’s easy for people to say ‘rewire your brain’

    almost like you automatically know how and what to do,

    not considering, that if a person might ‘need’ rewiring in the

    first place, the wiring that is there might have a hard time

    recognizing and putting into action what is required for

    ‘rewiring’, afterall, they are being asked to solve something

    with the wiring that is already compromised.

    patience, with those who need help, just giving orders

    can add to the faulty wiring.

  12. we cannot understand what someone else is going through

    even if we had similar experiences,

    still, as an individual

    it is unique to each person

    we can perhaps, relate to the experience,

    but not ‘understand it’

  13. Today I play hymns for loss.
    Notre Dame means Our Lady but for centuries the feminine symbol has been dominated by kings, revolutionaries, politicians, and church fathers who retained faith in male power. Now the spire has fallen into ashes just as the old patriarchy must give way to a new unknown. I pray that the conversation can shift away from how to restore a building. Let’s ask, instead, how we can increasingly hear Our Lady’s guidance in both sacred and secular worlds. And, for the records, I believe her name is larger than Mary. ~ Gary Diggins

  14. what are the best creative hours of the day?

    depends on the individual.

    who’s to say, it is dangerous to paint, write, sing, dance, create
    in the early hours of the morning, when most are asleep?

    even those who advise on being creative, tend to forget about their
    own advise

  15. what are the best creative hours of the day?

    depends on the individual.

    who’s to say, it is dangerous to paint, write, sing, dance, create
    in the early hours of the morning, when most are asleep?

    even those who advise on being creative, tend to forget about their
    own advise

    no one can really know the heart of another, and when those
    creative sparks can fly
    there are no specific times, it is a matter of
    what flows through each person

  16. waves of love and space between thoughts and
    breathing, peace and calm to our minds and hearts

  17. What if, when every time someone has a birthday, their skin colour changes
    to be of another race?
    Character, personality, traits, etc. stays the same, same person, just the
    race colour changes?

  18. ‘Mothers’ no amount of words con begin to reveal
    what they do, what they endure, sacrifice, how deep
    a love goes with them. Just too many qualities to list,
    it is an endless existence, once a mother, there is no
    turning away from such an experience.
    God Bless All Mother’s
    aum shanti shanti shanti aum

  19. God’s Blessings for my daughter,
    as her journey evolves onwards
    to new learning and discoveries
    of ‘self’ and life
    in a new abode
    away from home
    one she will now
    call home
    knowing
    from first home she knew, in this life, while in the womb
    she will always have a place in my heart and soul.
    I love you, my daughter,
    Being well and safe,
    aum gam ram lam aum
    Mama

  20. presence, awareness, being,
    paying attention

    all words,
    put into practice

    becomes something else
    no words can describe

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