The Anish Kapoor exhibition at the Royal Academy in London is stunning. Forced into you are altered realities and perspectives that you either accept or do what a lot of the (huge) crowd was doing to protect itself. Laughing and passing so called ‘witty comments’. Or some one was lecturing loudly on the meaning behind Anish Kapoor’s sculptures are. That when at the very front Anish has said categorically that they do not mean anything. But to not mean anything is not to say they are meaningless. It means that the artist is asking you NOT to search for meaning, but simply stop protecting yourself by being an observer. And allow the art to overwhelm you.
And that is what it did to me. I was thrown into a schizophrenic middle between feelings of infinity and yet struggling because I knew what I was looking at was finite. But when the observer in me dissolved, there was only the overwhelming desire to merge with the sculpture !! And how do you that without throwing yourself at the installation and destroying it ?? No wonder the guards were looking at me so suspiciously. I must have had that wild look in my eyes – without the dispassionate and gentle demeanor of the very British people. I had to leave before I became a wild child,
Anish said something I have always followed and said again and again. The most creative words I know are ” I don’t know” . If you know, then there is no yearning and no art. Because knowing is finite and false. Not knowing and yearning is infinite and the truth.
Yearning is Art.