This is Shekhar again. Thank u Justin for holding the daily blog together so infomatively and so entertainingly. And thank you Melainie for your wonderfully emotional blogs for your all too brief visit to out sets from Australia<\/p>\n
\nSo what does that last day mean ? Relief ? The end of fatigue ?
\nNot at all. It is the begining of doubt.
\nCould I have done better ?
\nDid I do my best ?
\nDid I push myself hard enough
\nOr did I just let emotinal and physical fatigue
\nmake me careless ?
\nWell, it’s done.
\nAnd I am trying to hang on to my own belief in Destiny
\nThis film, and film, any event, has as much an induviduality as you or I
\nDoes that mean I don’t try hard ?
\nNo it only means that I work with the greater passion of the moment
\nNot of the result
\nIf only I could have been so pure
\nso of the moment
\nI am not evolved enough yet
\nI gave into the force of other people’s judgement now and again
\nI looked for appreciation in others eyes, every now and again
\nOh well, I am human
\nmust forgive myself for those moments that I was not completely honest
\nbut allowed my ego as a film maker edge out pure instinct
\nGod, how the ego prejudices
\nOh well, I am human
\nI do have the best editor in the world
\nI must leave her to explore her instincts
\nJill Bilcock has very very strong instincts
\nStrictly Ballroom, Romeo and Julliette, Elizabeth, Road to Perdition, The Dish ..Oh yes, her instincts are strong. Plus she will bring a strong feminine point of view,
\nLets see.
\nThe film is not the script
\nThe film is not the performances
\nThe film is not what I shot
\nNow the real film must emerge organnically
\nmake itself heard,
\ncall all of us to it,
\nIt is time for Jill to listen the the film
\nit is time for her to hear it’s calling
\nbefore I step back in again after a month
\nShekhar<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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