If I am not struggling,
\nis there no creative process ?<\/p>\n
\nIf I am not exploring,
\nis there no discovery ?
\nand is it discovery I am looking for
\nor is the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
\njust another deeper,
\nmore profound,
\nmore relevant question ?
\nIf I am not in angst with the script,
\nare my characters not in angst with themselves ?
\nam I the director, another character in angst ?
\nCan I live in the story ?
\nCan I both create a world, and then step into it myself ?
\nWho am I in this film ?
\nThe last four days have been easier
\nI finished on time
\nI have not been torn apart
\nis something going wrong ?
\nhave I lost my passion ?
\nor am I just well prepared
\nam I too prepared ?
\nam I not being organic ?
\nplease, can I continue to live on the edge ?
\nto explore on the edge
\nplease,
\nlet me be a sail whipped around in the wind
\nlet the symphony engulf me
\nand please
\ncan it be totally unpredictable ?
\nand let every moment be a question
\nwhere every thought is dispersed
\nand a new one rushes in to fill the vaccum
\nPlease do not let me become a prisoner
\nof my knowledge
\nof career
\nof a job
\nof my desire
\nto please
\nof my need
\nto be appreciated
\nshekhar<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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