Natasha’s questions (comment posted under the Void), led to this play of thought:
“Love for another being is not neccesarily the only way to search for your yourself, your consciousness. But ‘LOVE” in itself is essential to find yourself. Love is the ‘harmony’ that embraces all the contradictory forces of our Universe, so only through Love you can experience them all as one.
I often imagine my self (because I am a visual person) dancing the Tandav with Shiva. But the dance is so Chaotic, so unpredictable, that the only way I can dance in sync with Shiva is to Love Shiva, so absolutely that you dance absolutely in Synch with Shiva. You are at that time in Harmony with Shiva, you are Shiva.
And you are right of course. To love another human being is not the only way to find yourself. But for a lot of us, we find we can give more passion in loving another human being, than we can to concepts like God, or to an idol in a temple. But if love is pure, then I find no difference in loving a concept like God or another human being. People that find love through faith and worship also are also supremely capable of finding themselves. With a lot less heartache I guess. We all have our paths, and each one is as relavent as the other.
You asked if it is selfish to love just to find yourself ? Hey, I don’ know the last time I fell in love looking for myself actively. They were never related activities. They become related as love went deeper and so deep, that you know that just sex and words alone cannot fulfill your yearning for each other. Then you search for a deeper meaning to why you love each other so much, and discover that the yearning is for God. And since God is nothing but consciousnes, the yearning is to find yourself in harmony with something that goes beyond your own cage of Individuality.
The real question you should ask me is, how can another human being be the constant like Shiva ? What if your are not loved back with the same passion. But true love, true passion cannot be obbsessive. Love is not possesion. It is giving and not taking. What will kill love is the desire to possess. For in the desire to posses, you are asserting your own individuality, the very thing you are yearning to lose !
You asked about contentment in love ? Have you found yourself then ? Is there no yearning then ? Have you become satisfied with the balance of existence in an earthly relationship ? Are you no longer looking for harmony with the Tandav dance of Shiva ?
And does contentment mean a cessation of the search ? Does contentment mean a cessation of Passion ? Does contentment mean that you no longer are finding new things about each other every moment ? How do you live each moment as if there was no past and no future ?
Will this always be a Question ? Yes, and more questions. Questions forever. That is the nature of the Universe. Otherwise we fall into the trap of becoming trapped in our own misrepresented reality, in our own Maya. Which is nothing but a weaving of our own fantasies.
And there is nothing wrong with that weaving. It is the reality once we have woven it. That dance of ever shifting reality is Krisna’s Leela. Krishna’ play. But it ceases to be Leela if you become fixated upon one reality, if you do not question it. For the next reality, like Shiva’s Tandav dance is unpredictable, chaotic and nothing to do with the previous reality.
So live in the reality, make it so real for yourself that you are absolutely and completely passionate about it. But knowing that the reality is just of that moment and what you created in your imagination. If you become fixated upon it, then you are seeking a future for that reality and you are no longer dancing and questioning,